Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Black Or White......

Currently listening to: Wale feat. Jazsmine Sullivan "World Tour"


So the last time I posted a new blog I told myself that I would no longer do this but then I remembered why I do. Even though I'm a straight forward person, there are always something you just can't verbalize to people. So I log on here & just pour my soul in these entries for myself & whoever comes along to read them.
Now, I'm a person who likes to lay the specifics of any given situation out so there won't be any misconceptions between anybody. Sometimes that works in my favor & other times it doesn't. I know that I'm a spoiled dude & I'm not used to having things not work in my favor. That really grinds my gears & I always begin to rigorously critic myself. No matter what anyone tells me, I always examine myself after a failed attempt to do anything. Because I'm a firm believer in learning from your mistakes/shortcomings. So when I really can't piece together why I've come short of a goal I begin to get really irritable. As I lay down typing this entry, I reminisce of a contant shortcoming on my behalf. of course there are other factors involved in me falling short of the goal I set out to accomplish but at the end of the day I know its definitely something I could have done/be doing to change that fact. I'm very obsessive right now because it's not even about getting to where I want to be anymore but its more so about me figuring out why did I fall short in the 1st place. I pray that God reveals the answer to this burning question or at least points me in the right direction because I'm severely disturbed by this.

1 comment:

My LoveLee Life said...

God always answers our prayers u just have to listen keep pushing yourself and he will kp giving you the strength to progress and achieve your goals.