Maybe I Deserve.......

Currently listening to: Lloyd - "One For Me"


I'm still a little pissed that I've had Lloyd's "Street Love" album for years & just noticed this song the other day! My homie Lloyd is too slept on in this music shit! Coming out with Ja in the midst of his beef with Curtis set him back! But anyway, let me get to the fucking point of this post & stop rambling on about Lloyd. After some surprise conversations with a few of the homies, I realize that all niggas go through the same bullshit with women!(notice I didn't say bitches, I'm trying to refrain from that word these days) I remember when we were all young & it wasn't shit to worry about but playing ball & getting whatever hot game was out for PS1. Now niggas done matured & developed emotions & what not! I personally don't even want another nigga coming to me discussing his feelings about a female but I'm not even gonna turn a deaf ear to my homies so I'll listen & provide insight if need be. I don't even know why niggas ask me for advice anyway. Ask of any of them when was the last girlfriend that I had! Man if that chick didn't hit me up like 2 weeks ago I wouldn't even remember. Everyone deserves what they feel is essential to their own happiness. Noone should allow another to decitate to them what defines your emotional satisfaction. Everyone isn't meant to have the white fench, wife, 2.5 kids, & a dog. Find out what it is that completes you & attain that because in life the only person you have to worry about pleasing besides God is yourself. Everyone else's pleasure at your hands is secondary or at least thats how I see things. There are some very selfless people out there who put others before self but I'm not 1 of them. I respect anyone who takes that vantage point on life because thats a very noble way to live life. So to those few who follow my blog or anyone who randomly comes across these words, find what you deserve & treat yourself! If nobody has ever told you this then I'll be the 1st to do so, you deserve your peace!