Maximum Capacity.......

Currently listening to: Young Money "Wife Beater"


So yesterday on twitter I watched some female followers squander on about how females put up with unnecessary bullshit. Then the exchange went on to how its not just females but people in general who put with the unnecessary bullshit from others especially in relationships. 1st & foremost before anyone who reads this wants to jump to any conclusions & think I'm putting up with ANYONE'S bullshit I'm not. I'm presently bullshit free & fully intend on staying that way for a very long time. I notice though in my very short lifespan that people tolerate bullshit from others because they often believe the person they're going through it with is worth the struggle. I can't even knock anyone for that because we've all been there before at some point or another. Some of us a lot less frequently than others & thats where the similarities stop. Some people out there are so hungry for companionship that they just be tolerated bullshit from any & everyone. If anyone there just read what I said & notices they put with a lot of bullshit then please examine things in your lifestyle. I'm not 1 to tell anyone how to live their life but don't put yourself through hardships for any ole regular person. Make sure if you're out there fighting "the good fight" that it is indeed "the good fight" & not just a flash in the pan. That especially goes out to the females because men have a lower tolerance for bullshit in my opinion. Women are beautiful don't let some loser ugly up your heart for another man who's there to polish its beauty! In the words of Mack Maine, "... tired of the same shit, I need a different toilet!!"

Charge me up......

Currently listening to: New Boyz - "You're A Jerk"


1 thing I've really noticed is that I'm a sucker for a nice compliment. I'm pretty sure I've even mentioned this on my blog before but fuck it, I'm going to do it again! If you don't like it eat a dick, lol. Crazy thing is about the whole thing with me liking compliments is that I hate to have the "battery put in my back". If you're not familiar with that term, it means when you tell someone what it is you think they want to hear. Like when I'm being told things I know aren't even true about me its pretty obvious what's going on. I'll take that extra juice from the battery though, fuel my ignorance! Genuine compliments are words that always find a way to leave me speechless on the other hand though. Its good to know that people honestly admire things about you & can let it be known without sounding so passe. The best kind of compliments are the 1s that come out of nowhere from unexpected sources. I'll accept both ways of people trying to tell me I'm the shit. I love good entertainment in the form of trying to put the battery in my back & I also love generosity.

To Say The Least......

Currently listening to: Drake " Thrill Is Gone "







So I actually had a post all saved under this title & everything but then something EXTREMELY comical happened to me Saturday night. I love when people pull complete 360 turns on you in a matter of days or better yet even hours. You can tell a person's character when they are taken out of their comfort zone. Some people, find ways to make sure they are comfortable & other find ways to make others around them equally as uncomfortable as they've become. To say the least, I use the word love because I actually hate it with a passion. Even though my mother actually did give birth to me at night, it damn sure wasn't last night (I've always wanted to use that line by the way). The easiest way to completely piss me off is attempt to make a fool of ANY belief that I have. There are things that I've grown to believe & have a certain amount of faith in. I was watching that Icon special on The Dream last night & he said that's he's not a person who wastes any conversation that he has. Thats a notion that I can totally agree with. None of the words that come out of my mouth are for entertainment & should taken with an extreme amount consideration. I consider myself a pretty compassionate man but once I lose my reason(s) for being compassionate I become extremely cold hearted. Being cold hearted isn't something thats particularly natural for me but I am damn sure good at it. There are plenty of bad things & attacks against people's character I could insert into this blog but I'm not going to be classless. Robin did raise her baby boy with some form tact even though I use it VERY loosely. #RANDOM HOW DO YOU EXPLAIN THE MOHAWK GRENADE?!?!?

Maybe I Deserve.......

Currently listening to: Lloyd - "One For Me"


I'm still a little pissed that I've had Lloyd's "Street Love" album for years & just noticed this song the other day! My homie Lloyd is too slept on in this music shit! Coming out with Ja in the midst of his beef with Curtis set him back! But anyway, let me get to the fucking point of this post & stop rambling on about Lloyd. After some surprise conversations with a few of the homies, I realize that all niggas go through the same bullshit with women!(notice I didn't say bitches, I'm trying to refrain from that word these days) I remember when we were all young & it wasn't shit to worry about but playing ball & getting whatever hot game was out for PS1. Now niggas done matured & developed emotions & what not! I personally don't even want another nigga coming to me discussing his feelings about a female but I'm not even gonna turn a deaf ear to my homies so I'll listen & provide insight if need be. I don't even know why niggas ask me for advice anyway. Ask of any of them when was the last girlfriend that I had! Man if that chick didn't hit me up like 2 weeks ago I wouldn't even remember. Everyone deserves what they feel is essential to their own happiness. Noone should allow another to decitate to them what defines your emotional satisfaction. Everyone isn't meant to have the white fench, wife, 2.5 kids, & a dog. Find out what it is that completes you & attain that because in life the only person you have to worry about pleasing besides God is yourself. Everyone else's pleasure at your hands is secondary or at least thats how I see things. There are some very selfless people out there who put others before self but I'm not 1 of them. I respect anyone who takes that vantage point on life because thats a very noble way to live life. So to those few who follow my blog or anyone who randomly comes across these words, find what you deserve & treat yourself! If nobody has ever told you this then I'll be the 1st to do so, you deserve your peace!

Making The Cut.........

Currently listening to: Marques Houston feat. Joe Budden "Clubbin'"


So in the wake of certain events, I've decided to take a new approach in life. Instead of "focusing" my time & efforts on 1 female, I decided that I gather me an unofficial line-up. Now I've heard other dudes talk about their roster & thinking back on it I've always had 1 myself. Just a group of different females I communicate with for whatever reason. Now I'm mentally free of previous restraints that I placed upon myself I can really just rock the fuck out! Well maybe I should actually wait a while because I don't want any of these chicks thinking their getting a Christmas gift from me, lmao. On some real shit though, I've been partially starving myself socially & I got to bounce back. It's pretty refreshing to actually go out with females & not feel guilty or wish that they were somebody else for the time being. But the rotation is starting to come together for the near future so we shall see how things develop with these "players" on the roster. Most importantly, I'm upfront with all of them so nobody has any misconceptions about what the fuck is going down! I ain't fuckin' none of them so they can't get mad over no shit like that.... Just Sharif spending some time with a few female "friends" on different occasions. I'm still in my warmup suit doing the layup line before the game... wait till I snap these pants off!

Let It Loose.....

Currently listening to: Jay Electronica "Victory In My Clutches"


So I never actually really got an answer as to why the cream hasn't risen to the top for me(I know some people may wonder why I always talk in analogies) but I've also made a very difficult decision. I've decided against trying to figure it out any longer & just to move on. Now I'm a man so I'll admit that I've very hurt by this & by no means was it an easy decision for me to make. I'm actually still a little uneasy about this & I may even indeed be wrong for doing this. But as Hov once said "... in order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets ". I'm probably going to be pretty damn crabby for the near future but whoever doesn't like it can eat a dick! To be perfectly honest, I feel like I'm being a quitter & that idea does bother me to the upteenth power. Like I haven't quit anything in my adult life after I decided to stop going to college so its definitely been weeded out of my system acting in such a fashion. But it definitely takes a lot more strength to know when to let go of your obsessions when they are not particularly lightening the load you must carry. Now I must redirect my energy, attention, passion, etc. onto something else. What is that something else you may wonder?!? Well if you figure it out before me then holla at me & let me know cause I have no idea. But through it all, this is just another lesson in class of self perfection that I've been enrolled in for some time now. I'll end things on this note... " I don't know the key to success but I know the key to failure is trying to please everyone " - Bill Cosby, until next entry folks!

Black Or White......

Currently listening to: Wale feat. Jazsmine Sullivan "World Tour"


So the last time I posted a new blog I told myself that I would no longer do this but then I remembered why I do. Even though I'm a straight forward person, there are always something you just can't verbalize to people. So I log on here & just pour my soul in these entries for myself & whoever comes along to read them.
Now, I'm a person who likes to lay the specifics of any given situation out so there won't be any misconceptions between anybody. Sometimes that works in my favor & other times it doesn't. I know that I'm a spoiled dude & I'm not used to having things not work in my favor. That really grinds my gears & I always begin to rigorously critic myself. No matter what anyone tells me, I always examine myself after a failed attempt to do anything. Because I'm a firm believer in learning from your mistakes/shortcomings. So when I really can't piece together why I've come short of a goal I begin to get really irritable. As I lay down typing this entry, I reminisce of a contant shortcoming on my behalf. of course there are other factors involved in me falling short of the goal I set out to accomplish but at the end of the day I know its definitely something I could have done/be doing to change that fact. I'm very obsessive right now because it's not even about getting to where I want to be anymore but its more so about me figuring out why did I fall short in the 1st place. I pray that God reveals the answer to this burning question or at least points me in the right direction because I'm severely disturbed by this.