Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I'm tryna.......

Currently listening to: Jadakiss feat. Neyo " Right By My Side "


       I remember hearing someone tell me when I was younger that if you tell yourself something enough then you will begin to believe it. I've come to realize that only works if you want to believe the lie(s) you are telling yourself. There are times when this philosophy has worked for me in helping to forget certain emotionally stressing moments. Now I suppose that I have to just take the first step forward or  just keep telling myself the same lie. The former is step into the direction of me not being so stubborn and just move in the direction I want to go in. While the latter, is me just deciding to beat a dead horse. I know I will never believe this one lie I've been telling myself for quite some time. When did shit get so fuckin' complicated!?!? I need to just go back to when I just didn't give a fuck about how my life ended up as along I was still alive.

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