I am my father's son.............

Currently listening to: Common feat. Lauryn Hill " Retrospective For Life "

          So today I get a phone call from my father and I really don't know what the fuck I should say about that. I mean I haven't seen my father in so long I don't really remember what the dude looks like too much anymore. I love the man because he helped bring life to the wonderful man that writes this blog. Thinking of how he hasn't been around just motivates me to be the complete opposite of everything that he embodies. I really can't say what I will be for sure in the future years but I can say 1 thing I won't be and that's anything close to what my father is/was. Tell me how this nigga gets mad at me because he came back home a couple of years ago and I didn't want to see him though?!?! Nigga must not realize I'm ass grown man and that I don't need him to start being my father. I been more of a father to myself in the past 15 years of my life than he has been to me!!! Whenever I decide to actually have a child, I know that if I'm not the same kind of father as my biological was to me then that's pretty damn good in itself. At the end of the day, I am my father's son but I always will be my own man and strive to be everything that he's not!!

Interesting development......

Currently listening to: M.I.A. " Paper Planes "

                I haven't really been into the whole political scene but when a friend sent me this message on facebook I thought it was pretty interesting. Check it out for yourself..........

WHAT IF:

Obama/Biden vs McCain/Palin, what if things were switched around?.....think about it.

Would the country's collective point of view be different? Could racism be the culprit?

Ponder the following:

What if the Obamas had paraded five children across the
stage, including a three month old infant and an unwed, pregnant teenage
daughter?

What if John McCain was a former president of the Harvard
Law Review? 

What if Barack Obama finished fifth from the bottom of his
graduating class?

What if McCain had only married once, and Obama was a 
divorcee?

What if Obama was the candidate who left his first wife
after a severe disfiguring car accident, when she no longer measured up to his standards?

What if Obama had met his second wife in a bar and had a
long affair while he was still married?

What if Michelle Obama was the wife who not only became
addicted to pain killers but also acquired them illegally through her 
charitable organization?

What if Cindy McCain graduated from Harvard?

What if Obama had been a member of the Keating Five?
(The Keating Five were five United States Senators accused of corruption
in 1989, igniting a major political scandal as part of the larger Savings
and Loan crisis of the late 1980s and early 1990s.)

What if McCain was a charismatic, eloquent speaker?

What if Obama couldn't read from a teleprompter?

What if Obama was the one who had military experience that included
discipline problems and a record of crashing seven planes?

What if Obama was the one who was known to display publicly, on many
occasions, a serious anger management problem?

What if Michelle Obama's family had made their money from beer distribution?

What if the Obama's had adopted a white child?

You could easily add to this list. 
If these questions reflected reality, do you really believe the election numbers would be as close as they are?

This is what racism does. 
It covers up, rationalizes and minimizes positive qualities in one candidate and emphasizes negative qualities in another
when there is a color difference.

Educational Background:

Barack Obama:
Columbia University - B.A. Political Science with a
Specialization in International Relations.
Harvard - Juris Doctor (J.D.) Magna Cum Laude

Joseph Biden:
University of Delaware - B.A. in History and B.A. in
Political Science
Syracuse University College of Law - Juris Doctor (J.D.)

Vs.

John McCain:
United States Naval Academy - Class rank: 894 of 899

Sarah Palin:
Hawaii Pacific University - 1 semester
North Idaho College - 2 semesters - general study
University of Idaho - 2 semesters - journalism
Matanuska-Susitna College - 1 semester
University of Idaho - 3 semesters - B.A in Journalism

Education isn't everything, but this is about the two highest offices in
the land as well as our standing in the world. 

You make the call.

 

Shhhhhhhh...........................

Currently listening to: Boy George and The Culture Club " Karma Chameleon "

                      I learned a valuable lesson this morning and thats to keep my fucking mouth shut!!! You have to be very careful about what part of your inner most thoughts you share with others. Not that I'm ashamed of anything that has ever come out of my mouth nor do I regret it. Not to say that I've never said anything that I shouldn't have said but for the most part, I mean what I say and I say what I mean so to speak. Just kinda got placed into an awkward situation earlier but definitely was a learning experience on my part. In the words of the immortal Shawn Carter aka Jay-Z, "....... well fuck it let the fish burn, red or green pill, you live and you learn!! "

Don't talk about it be about it................

Currently listening to: Ron Browz " Pop Champagne " 

                  I a guy with quite a bit of female friends and they always ask me " Why don't you just around fuckin' a whole bunch of bitches like most guys? " I always tell them that I value the penis that I sling. A lot of niggas run around talking the same old " I fucked this girl or she sucked my shit " type of talk. I feel if you handling your shit like you're supposed to then there is no need to be mentioning who you fucked or any of your sexual escapades. Quite honestly, you can find who I had sex with from the female before you would ever hear me speak on it. I stay quiet about my shit because talk is cheap. I'm usually too focused on the work I'm about to put in to be talking shit. In the words of Ray Charles, " Imma make it do what it do baaaaaabbbbbyy ". No need for no fucking verbal previews straight to the main attraction!!! ACTION...............

Emotional memory........

Currently listening to: Jay-Z " Can I Live "

           There is no clear definition for what muscle memory is exactly. From my understanding of the concept muscle memory is when a person constantly participates in the same physical activity and their muscle becomes accustomed to same kind of movement involved in that very same activity. Now that very subject leads into my title, emotional memory. From my experience in life, I believe there is a such thing as emotional memory. Just replace a few key words in my understanding of muscle memory and you have the concept I call emotional memory. I think I may just study this concept because if I'm right I just may be on to something big!! I've grown accustomed to having certain feelings for someone near and dear to my own heart. But after a recent falling out, I've been trying to convince myself that I actually don't feel how I'm accustomed to. They say if you tell yourself something enough times that you start to believe it yourself. It's a lot easier to tell yourself how you feel about a person when you don't speak to them (take my word for it). Now that said person and myself are on speaking terms again my emotional memory is starting to kick in. Contrary to my better judgement, the way I'm accustomed to feeling is rearing it's head once again. But me being the strong minded individual that I am, I just keep it to myself. So do I go against good judgement and act upon familiarity or do I just do what I've been doing so far which is just pretend to be a different person. But the main part of the question is, do I do what I think is best for me or what I feel is best for them?

If my mother asks me 1 more time.........

Currently listening to: Trey Songz " We Should Be "

               I swear if  my mother or step-father ask me 1 more motherfuckin' time when am I gonna bring a girl over for dinner...... I'm gonna lose it!! Now I don't talk about my family too often but I do value them very much. If I was actually engaged in some form of relationship that would require me introducing a female to my family then I would do so. But I'm not so I won't just go around bringing people into my house for dinner. It may seem like a minor act for most people but for me I would consider it a privilege to allow any female to sit amongst my family. I felt kinda weird introducing my moms to this chick who came by my house and had to use the bathroom. Knowing my mother's mindset, she of course thought this chick was my girlfriend. And of course she was wrong! Just a friend coming to say " hello " and console me during a rough experience. I know this matter will come up again especially with Thanksgiving a little over a month away and I just gotta be prepared to hold in fiery for this very subject. 

My baby is comg back to me....

Currently listening to: Jagged Edge " Good Luck Charm "

           So after a couple of months apart, my baby has finally returned to me. Me and my baby had a rather abrupt ending to our relationship but she's coming back to me very soon. No, its not who you think.... it's my XBOX 360!!!! For some random ass reason my XBOX stopped working a couple of months ago but I hesitated to fix the problem. But after months of being miserable, I decided to send her to go get some help. I just received and email letting me know that she's coming back to me soon. I promise that when my baby returns me that I won't ever allow anything to come between us ever again. To show how much I care I'll welcome her with NBA 2k9 when she gets home. See ya soon boo!!!

Breaking The Silence............

Currently listening to: Lupe Fiasco " Dear Fall "

         So other day I made an attempt to break my silence with the female I consider " the love of my life ". I texted her (or least the number when we used to communicate with each other ) against the advice of a close friend to me. Now I didn't get a response and I will admit that it kinda made me sad.  I know that I have done plenty of wrong but this is like running into a brick wall. I know how things are going to turn out but I still continue to try. I guess I'm just silly enough to think things may change. I've tried to move on and it really hasn't worked and I really don't know direction I should be going in right now. Should I make another attempt to break the silence or should I just accept that I ruined a good thing and just be a miserable 24 year old black man?

My 1st debate.......

Currently listening to: T.I. " What up, What's Haapnin' "

       So yesterday, I decided that I would watch that debate because of all the twitter updates I was receiving via text message. Now I'm not into politics the least bit but I figured it was time for me to stop being ignorant to what was going on around me and listen up. Now being as though I barely knew what the fuck the 2 V.P. candidates were talking about I was very much just  listening to rambling. I don't need to know what someone is talking about to know if they believe what it is that is coming out of their mouth. It was very evident that Biden believed what he was saying. It was like Palin was just reading off a piece of paper or something. But this peaked my interest and I will be watching the debate next week and the future debates until the election. My vote is very much up in the air of now so let's get it on..............