Obsession Part duex

Currently listening to: Max B " Paperwork "

         On my other blog I had in the past I wrote about obsession but I don't even really remember what it is that I wrote ( don't care to go back and check either ). But most people are obsessed with things such as money, sex, drugs, power, fame, etc. As for myself, I've got an obsession over a female. Now even though the female of discussion wants nothing to do with me for the time being and for the foreseeable future I still make it my business to read her blog frequently ( no need for comment because I know what you may be thinking ). I check her "tweets" on Twitter too and I'm not ashamed to say I just may be obsessed. Now every since we've stopped talking to each other I've been in this funk. I really don't shit but go to work and then come in the house. I don't know if thats a reflection of my drastic change in life or just because I just don't feel like doing anything. But I know being with this female is like 1 of the very few things I ever felt was worth me exerting any extra energy into doing. That's not to say that I did everything that I could to make it happen because if that were so then I wouldn't even be in this situation. My feelings often waver over this but thats usually when my pride gets in the way. Recently I've been kind of " talking " this chick and at 1st when I started " talking " to her I never thought about my obsession ( that purely because of my pride telling me that I should move on ). But now whenever I talk to this other girl, it just reminds me constantly of my obsession. So I guess with my failed attempt to move on out of the way I have to get back on my grind. I got to go back to the way I was on it when my obsession was more than a 2 hour drive down the Garden State Parkway, back to when I sent flowers just to let her know I love her, or when we would talk on the phone until she fell asleep. So now I got to refocus my energy and make it happen this time around because I honestly never see myself ever wanting something else as bad again in my life.......