The Way You Make Me Feel......

Currently listening to: " Better On The Other Side " - The Game, Chris Brown, Diddy, Polow Da Don, Mario Winans, Usher, Boyz II Men



The day Michael Joseph Jackson died was a very sad moment for a lot people. I was born in the spring of 1984 so that puts me right in the middle of the Thriller to Bad album eras. Michael Jackson was 1st the celebrity I looked up to. Long before I discovered basketball or even rap music there he was. I remember getting my ass beat for "moon walking" in my socks across the living room floor in front the TV to Smooth Criminal. 1 of the best times of my life is when I dressed as him for Halloween in pre-school. I remember the glitter glove, white socks, & shoes. Till this day, when I go the club & his music comes on I feel like a kid again. My eyes open wide as saucers then I begin to impersonate his dance moves. Regardless of what his personal issues may be I will always see him with a childlike innocence. People may not understand why I have taken the death of a complete stranger so hard but for me he was more than an entertainer. He was the 1st person I ever wanted to be like. Before I could put into words how much I love my family, I knew that I loved him & his music. So with his passing, its like part of my childhood has gone with him. When I listen to his music I just shake my head in disbelief at his genius. His music is like listening to Mozart or Chopin. I can close my eyes & just drift off because it is that magical to me. So on June 25th, I didn't just lose a great entertainer in whom I admire but I lost a close friend. RIP Michael Joseph Jackson, you were dearly loved by this man here.

Blind favors.....

Currently listening to: Trey Songz " First Date Sex "



So sometimes things happen to you & you really don't understand why. It may seem like at the time that it's just the shittiest thing in the world but in reality it was probably the best thing for you. Just cleared room for some much need changes in my life because I was walking around with the blinders on like a race horse. The race that I was racing wasn't the race for me. As a matter of fact, I don't know what God has in store for me so I'll just it at least wasn't the race for me at the time. Now that blinders are off it's like I've been missing out on some shit!! So I got my walking stick & I'm already been on my new journey. R.I.P. David Carridine because the last line reminded me of " Kung Fu: The Legend Continues " & he was the shit in the show!!

All praises due to......

Currently listening to: Trey Songz feat. Drake " Invented Sex "


My birthday was almost a week ago & I'd have to say that this birthday may have been the best I've had. Nothing too big but I had a blast either way. I thank God everyday for allowing me to breath another day on this Earth. Thinking back on how things were going for me last year, I also thank God for putting me through what I've been through in the past year. If anyone would have told me some of the things that happened to me would happen I probably would of laughed in their face. I've faced some situations & responded some ways that surprise me. This past year has definitely taught me that things aren't always what they seem. Sometimes you just need to remove yourself from a situation so you can have a birdseye view of what's going on. I just hope & pray that guy let's me see another year of life in the world.......

Its alright......

Currently listening to: "Every Girl" Lil Wayne feat. Young Money


Why is whenever you really start fuckin' with someone those of the opposite sex just flock to you?!? Not even fuckin' as in having sex though but spending time with someone significantly. I swear this weekend & pretty much every Memorial weekend is my time for getting females numbers! I wasn't even trying to get them which just makes it even worse. Where was all this fuckin' attention in like late February & early March when I was in another 1 of my funks?!? Bitches ain't shit..... lol. Luckily for the female I'm spending my time with that I'm a faithful kinda dude. Even though we ain't together I respect what we got going on so I'll just keep these bitches numbers on deck. I learned 1 thing in my lifetime so far, never put all of your faith in anyone but God & your mother! So no matter how close I ever get to a female she'll never have all of my trust. Gotta stay with something on deck cause bitches be buggin in these streets & you don't want to be in the cold wearing a wind breaker, you feel me?!?

This or That......

Currently listening to: Cam'ron " Where I Know You From "


Man, it's definitely been too long for me on this blog shit. Everytime I tell myself I'm gonna get back on my grind, something just comes up & I stop bloggin. I'm not gonna make myself any promises because I know how it's been turning out. So recently I been laying the penis down on someone new & before I layed it down she already called me a lot. Now post-penis, she calls me ALL THE FUCKIN TIME!!! Its not a problem though cause I actually like her & enjoy her company. I'm starting to notice a trend though in my life..... females usually like me enough once they get to know me. If I have sex with them, shit just goes to a whole different level! I'm always a person who's constructively dissatisfied so I always think I can lay the pipe better than I may have. Now I have to wonder, do I really be puttin' it down on these chicks or do I just run into some nymphos!?!? I need to tape myself so I can do a scouting report on my pipe game.

Can't Win For Losing

Currently listening : " Who's Gonna Save My Soul " by Gnarls Barkley


I haven't blogged in a while, I hope I still can do this shit right(lol)!! This song I'm currently listening to will always be a song I remember for the rest of my life. A song that was brought to my attention when I thought part of my life was going in the toilet. Maybe it was at the time but in retrospect it was just another learning tool in my life so I won't pretend that it was nothing. I still kinda feel like something is missing but the void can't be filled so I just have to keep it moving. But really let me get into what I intended to blog about......
So in my last blog post, I mentioned a certain female that I been spending a lot of time with recently. Now she has a boyfriend which makes it an awkward situation because I never thought of myself to be 1 of those kind of dudes (the I'm fucking with somebody else's girl type). When life gives you lemons you make lemonade! The longer this shit goes on, the more complicated this shit just becomes. Yesterday we were having a very deep conversation & she asks me why don't I have a girlfriend. I don't have a answer for that question.... females I actually grow to give 2 shits about usually seem to take my kindness for a weakness. Then bitches wanna wonder why I act the way I act most of the time. Make up your fucking mind bitches!! But that goes right in with the title of this blog. No matter which side I decide to choose things just never really work in my favor. I'd definitely give all of my earthly possesions if my future self came to see me in the Dolorean to tell me what the fuck happens to me in the future. My life is great movie and I'm just waiting for the climax because all these introduction years are really getting annoying.

I Love Your Girl.... well not love but ya know!!!

Currently listening to: Tyga " Saying This "



So recently, I been hanging with this chick a lot but she has a boyfriend. Now the funny thing is that I actually I'm feeling this chick but of course she has a boyfriend. I'm not 1 of those " what ya man gotta do with me " kinda dudes so this is a conundrum for me. I mean maybe a month ago I stopped to this chick I would of swore on the bible I would marry & now I'm stuck in a pickle with a chick who has a boyfriend.... WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!? I hang out with her in public places so I don't end up doing anything inappropriate or anything to induce further disrespect to her relationship. Now that I think about, maybe I shouldn't even chill with her at all anymore because that's rather fucked up!! I wouldn't want some dude hanging out with my chick all the time. I got to have the shittiest luck in the world when it comes to shit with women. The females in which I share a genuine & a mutual fondness for never are really accessible to me!! All the dumb females who are on my dick that I can't stand are available a whim!! That shit is fucking crazy..... I'm take my skinny ass in the Biggavel & go for a drive to gather my thoughts!!