Its alright......

Currently listening to: "Every Girl" Lil Wayne feat. Young Money


Why is whenever you really start fuckin' with someone those of the opposite sex just flock to you?!? Not even fuckin' as in having sex though but spending time with someone significantly. I swear this weekend & pretty much every Memorial weekend is my time for getting females numbers! I wasn't even trying to get them which just makes it even worse. Where was all this fuckin' attention in like late February & early March when I was in another 1 of my funks?!? Bitches ain't shit..... lol. Luckily for the female I'm spending my time with that I'm a faithful kinda dude. Even though we ain't together I respect what we got going on so I'll just keep these bitches numbers on deck. I learned 1 thing in my lifetime so far, never put all of your faith in anyone but God & your mother! So no matter how close I ever get to a female she'll never have all of my trust. Gotta stay with something on deck cause bitches be buggin in these streets & you don't want to be in the cold wearing a wind breaker, you feel me?!?

This or That......

Currently listening to: Cam'ron " Where I Know You From "


Man, it's definitely been too long for me on this blog shit. Everytime I tell myself I'm gonna get back on my grind, something just comes up & I stop bloggin. I'm not gonna make myself any promises because I know how it's been turning out. So recently I been laying the penis down on someone new & before I layed it down she already called me a lot. Now post-penis, she calls me ALL THE FUCKIN TIME!!! Its not a problem though cause I actually like her & enjoy her company. I'm starting to notice a trend though in my life..... females usually like me enough once they get to know me. If I have sex with them, shit just goes to a whole different level! I'm always a person who's constructively dissatisfied so I always think I can lay the pipe better than I may have. Now I have to wonder, do I really be puttin' it down on these chicks or do I just run into some nymphos!?!? I need to tape myself so I can do a scouting report on my pipe game.

Can't Win For Losing

Currently listening : " Who's Gonna Save My Soul " by Gnarls Barkley


I haven't blogged in a while, I hope I still can do this shit right(lol)!! This song I'm currently listening to will always be a song I remember for the rest of my life. A song that was brought to my attention when I thought part of my life was going in the toilet. Maybe it was at the time but in retrospect it was just another learning tool in my life so I won't pretend that it was nothing. I still kinda feel like something is missing but the void can't be filled so I just have to keep it moving. But really let me get into what I intended to blog about......
So in my last blog post, I mentioned a certain female that I been spending a lot of time with recently. Now she has a boyfriend which makes it an awkward situation because I never thought of myself to be 1 of those kind of dudes (the I'm fucking with somebody else's girl type). When life gives you lemons you make lemonade! The longer this shit goes on, the more complicated this shit just becomes. Yesterday we were having a very deep conversation & she asks me why don't I have a girlfriend. I don't have a answer for that question.... females I actually grow to give 2 shits about usually seem to take my kindness for a weakness. Then bitches wanna wonder why I act the way I act most of the time. Make up your fucking mind bitches!! But that goes right in with the title of this blog. No matter which side I decide to choose things just never really work in my favor. I'd definitely give all of my earthly possesions if my future self came to see me in the Dolorean to tell me what the fuck happens to me in the future. My life is great movie and I'm just waiting for the climax because all these introduction years are really getting annoying.

I Love Your Girl.... well not love but ya know!!!

Currently listening to: Tyga " Saying This "



So recently, I been hanging with this chick a lot but she has a boyfriend. Now the funny thing is that I actually I'm feeling this chick but of course she has a boyfriend. I'm not 1 of those " what ya man gotta do with me " kinda dudes so this is a conundrum for me. I mean maybe a month ago I stopped to this chick I would of swore on the bible I would marry & now I'm stuck in a pickle with a chick who has a boyfriend.... WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!? I hang out with her in public places so I don't end up doing anything inappropriate or anything to induce further disrespect to her relationship. Now that I think about, maybe I shouldn't even chill with her at all anymore because that's rather fucked up!! I wouldn't want some dude hanging out with my chick all the time. I got to have the shittiest luck in the world when it comes to shit with women. The females in which I share a genuine & a mutual fondness for never are really accessible to me!! All the dumb females who are on my dick that I can't stand are available a whim!! That shit is fucking crazy..... I'm take my skinny ass in the Biggavel & go for a drive to gather my thoughts!!

The Milk Has Gone Bad......

Currently listening to: Jay-Z " Lost One "

To begin this month I just had to come to realization that some people are just better off left outside of my circle. It's no hard feelings & I wish them the best of luck in the future. I had to stop talking to 2 friends of mine for different reasons. 1 of them because they been going through some shit & been doing others around them wrong. So I figure I would stop talking to them before that drama even comes my way. I'm not 1 for the drama & I will beat a nigga's ass immediately if they come my way with the bullshit. So let's just go our seperate ways now & save you from getting knocked the fuck out cause I don't talk the shit I talk for nothing. The 2nd friend I can't even tell you why we don't talk anymore. In the past when this happened I used to want to know why weren't talking anymore. This time around I could careless but once again I don't have any ill feelings towards neither of the friends I no longer speak with. May God bless them & keep them strong because the movie called my life still goes on. Some people will get an expanded role while new characters may be introduced at a later date. Stay tuned for greatness & let me end with a quote I thought of.... " Why be with someone holding you back when there is someone waiting to push you forward "

I'm slippin....

Currently listening to: " Time To Pretend " MGMT

I told myself & whoever so happens to read my blog at the end of January that I would some up how things went for me on a monthly basis. It's now the 4th of March & I'm just getting around to it. February was a short & quiet month for me if I must say so myself. Valentine's Day came & went for me. I'm not 1 for celebrating that holiday anyway so it wasn't any skin off my back. I got to spend some time with a friend I haven't seen in a while. Anytime I can be around liquor, music, & women is a good time for me. I don't know how I made it through NYC drunk & all the way back home that night but I did it (shoutout to my wheel game). Thank God for that though because sometimes friends help see things you wouldn't have seen for yourself with them pointing you in the right direction. For the most part though, I just spent most of the month on chill with a few exceptions the last 2 weeks of the month. So all in all February was boring as hell for me. I hope as the weather heats up so will my activities.

Am I My Brother's Keeper?!

Currently listening to: R.Kelly " I Wish "







Now I must admit in the past that I never gave a shit about what's going on in foreign affairs. I always just felt for the most part the poor soldiers who get stuck in the "battle" were just pawns being used to fight for shit most of them could care less about. I mean I've had 3 homies in the Navy(1 finished his time) & I always told them they were dumb for joining the Navy. But now 1 of them is being sent off to Iraq & shit obviously has hit home. This nigga is a brother... I mean I've know him since elementary school. I know God will take care of him & bring him home safely. But now I'll be paying closer attention to what's going on around the world because I've got family involved in this mess. He didn't join the Navy because he's some patriot(nigga not even American, he's from Jamaica) but just because they were offering a chance for him to better himself. He was never too much of the school type. I have found myself praying way more than I have ever prayed in the past recently. I'm not overly religious but I believe the bible verse goes something like, ".. I look to the hills for which cometh my help, my help cometh from the Lord ". I know God has given me everything I have in my life & he will provide me with everything I ever will have. Now I have to include my brother in my prayers... I pray God keeps him safe for himself, his family, & his friends. When his time to come back to New Jersey for good has come we gonna party like we never partied before.