Muthafucka For What?!?!

Currently listening to: Jay-Z feat. Bilal " Fallin' "



So my father hit me up on NYD to wish me a happy new year & says he need to talk to me. Now my father has lived in Iowa (yea Iowa not Ohio but fuckin' Iowa) for the last 13 years or so & I've seen him 1 time since his mother/my nana died when I was 12. This nigga always wants to hit me with that "daddy" shit! I'm 25 fuckin years old & the days of having a father are long overdue & out of my mind. I truly appreciate my step-father & all the things he's taught me growing up but I only got 1 father & his sorry ass lives in Iowa. I love the man to death because he is my father but at the same time I can't stand the nigga. You know what it is to love someone with all your heart but in the same heartbeat you can't stand them?!? Part of me wants to hear this nigga out but thats my soft inner child who stills sees him as the man who introduced to basketball & how to defend myself. Then part of me says "Man, fuck that sorry ass nigga!!" & thats the part of me who had to see some other nigga come in & teach me how to be a man. I learned several things from my father but the main thing I learned is how not to treat your children. Regardless of whatever my future holds, I will NEVER turn my back on my children!!! I don't care if I'm homeless , I will ALWAYS be there for my children until my last breath! I sincerely pray God shows him the way & I also pray that God 1 day will allow me the inner strength to break bread with my father. Maybe 1 day I will see him as my "daddy" again but for now that nigga will continue to be Darron to me!