Sunday, August 31, 2008

Heart Of A Killer...........

Currently listening to:  Omarion " Icebox "


          My mother always told me that when I get upset I have an evil look in my eye as if I could kill a person. You know what, I know I am very capable of taking the life of another human being. Hate is an emotion I don't like to exercise but sometimes I feel it in brief spurts. The part of me that has some compassion tells me that it isn't right and then the feeling subsides. My friend Sarath thinks that I have a feeling of hatred for a certain someone who shall remain nameless. To set the record straight, I don't hate anybody ( plenty of people I strongly dislike but not hate ) because to hate is to let someone push you to the limit. I will not allow myself to ever be pushed to the limit. Nobody walking the face of this Earth is worth the time it takes to hate someone. But I do look in the mirror and see that look my mother tells me about. I don't get angry very often so when I do people should stay clear because I do get very irrational. I can do things I know will hurt people at times ( intentionally too) and have little regard of the outcome. That why I say heart of a killer, a killer can totally dismember another person and have no emotion. Sometime I just feel like I have an icebox where my heart should be ( yes I know thats part of a song ) and then I try to find some light in the situation. As of now I've almost approached the light at the end of the tunnel.................

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