Currently listening to: Lupe Fiasco " Hurt Me Soul "
So now in life I find myself in a position which all too familiar to me. I need to master the art of stepping outside myself & examining the shit that I get myself into. Pardon my language, I've been trying to dial down on the profanity but it hasn't exactly been the easiest road. Anyway, I just need to see the happenings of my life & look at them from a 3rd person perspective. Would I give myself the same advice that I would give another person in the same exact situation as myself?? Familiarity breeds content but what is there to be done to turn the familiar into something new? What changes can I make to my familiar routine that will turn things around? I've been here before but I need to learn from my past missteps & make things different this time around. I recognize my history & with the help of God hopefully I will not be doomed to repeat it because I'm not sure if I can take going through the same turmoil again. Stay tuned because this will be an event of catastrophic proportions or something marvelous.......
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Hurricane Season....
Currently listening to: Michael Jackson & The Jacksons " Maria (You Were The Only One) "
Once again its been a while since I've written on this blog but I'm home bored as ever so I decided to go in. This summer really hasn't been too good & that's to say the least. Well I kinda got dumped even though I wasn't even officially in a relationship. Someone broke into my car stealing my iPod & car radio. I got a speeding ticket on my own block. These are just minor plot twists in the movie of my life. Like I said before that in my movie that roles will change & some people may even come back on the scene or leave the scene as well for that matter. 1 thing I've noticed in my lifetime is that I think my personality draws some people in. Not to sound cocky because thats not the intent of that comment. Some people just really vibe off of who I am & at the same time other don't but I choose to focus on those who do(why I even shed light on people who don't like me). The chick I used to fuck with now has a revised role in this movie of my life. We still cool & actually see each other on ocassion because we were actually friends before all the wildness popped in her life. She's pretty cool & my mama likes her so she'll definitely have a place into the movie for a while. The female who steered in me in the direction of blogspot has come back around. I reached out to her & broke the silence between us because I really can't even explain how she makes me feel sometimes. I will say this though, I actually put my pride aside for once & made a "mature" decision. I'll lie to anybody on this earth including my mother before I lie to myself. I knew while we weren't talking & I was fucking with the other chick that I still wanted to reach out. Ironically when I finally decided to do it is was like 2-3 weeks before I got " dumped ". I forgot to mention I smoked weed for the 1st time this summer. I can definitely see why people do that shit because everything is funny when you're high. My nigga said peanut butter to me last night while I was high & I laughed at him for over 2o minutes. I wonder can you have sex all day/night when you're high like you can when you're drunk. Hmmmmmm........ maybe 1 day!
Once again its been a while since I've written on this blog but I'm home bored as ever so I decided to go in. This summer really hasn't been too good & that's to say the least. Well I kinda got dumped even though I wasn't even officially in a relationship. Someone broke into my car stealing my iPod & car radio. I got a speeding ticket on my own block. These are just minor plot twists in the movie of my life. Like I said before that in my movie that roles will change & some people may even come back on the scene or leave the scene as well for that matter. 1 thing I've noticed in my lifetime is that I think my personality draws some people in. Not to sound cocky because thats not the intent of that comment. Some people just really vibe off of who I am & at the same time other don't but I choose to focus on those who do(why I even shed light on people who don't like me). The chick I used to fuck with now has a revised role in this movie of my life. We still cool & actually see each other on ocassion because we were actually friends before all the wildness popped in her life. She's pretty cool & my mama likes her so she'll definitely have a place into the movie for a while. The female who steered in me in the direction of blogspot has come back around. I reached out to her & broke the silence between us because I really can't even explain how she makes me feel sometimes. I will say this though, I actually put my pride aside for once & made a "mature" decision. I'll lie to anybody on this earth including my mother before I lie to myself. I knew while we weren't talking & I was fucking with the other chick that I still wanted to reach out. Ironically when I finally decided to do it is was like 2-3 weeks before I got " dumped ". I forgot to mention I smoked weed for the 1st time this summer. I can definitely see why people do that shit because everything is funny when you're high. My nigga said peanut butter to me last night while I was high & I laughed at him for over 2o minutes. I wonder can you have sex all day/night when you're high like you can when you're drunk. Hmmmmmm........ maybe 1 day!
Friday, June 26, 2009
The Way You Make Me Feel......
Currently listening to: " Better On The Other Side " - The Game, Chris Brown, Diddy, Polow Da Don, Mario Winans, Usher, Boyz II Men
The day Michael Joseph Jackson died was a very sad moment for a lot people. I was born in the spring of 1984 so that puts me right in the middle of the Thriller to Bad album eras. Michael Jackson was 1st the celebrity I looked up to. Long before I discovered basketball or even rap music there he was. I remember getting my ass beat for "moon walking" in my socks across the living room floor in front the TV to Smooth Criminal. 1 of the best times of my life is when I dressed as him for Halloween in pre-school. I remember the glitter glove, white socks, & shoes. Till this day, when I go the club & his music comes on I feel like a kid again. My eyes open wide as saucers then I begin to impersonate his dance moves. Regardless of what his personal issues may be I will always see him with a childlike innocence. People may not understand why I have taken the death of a complete stranger so hard but for me he was more than an entertainer. He was the 1st person I ever wanted to be like. Before I could put into words how much I love my family, I knew that I loved him & his music. So with his passing, its like part of my childhood has gone with him. When I listen to his music I just shake my head in disbelief at his genius. His music is like listening to Mozart or Chopin. I can close my eyes & just drift off because it is that magical to me. So on June 25th, I didn't just lose a great entertainer in whom I admire but I lost a close friend. RIP Michael Joseph Jackson, you were dearly loved by this man here.
The day Michael Joseph Jackson died was a very sad moment for a lot people. I was born in the spring of 1984 so that puts me right in the middle of the Thriller to Bad album eras. Michael Jackson was 1st the celebrity I looked up to. Long before I discovered basketball or even rap music there he was. I remember getting my ass beat for "moon walking" in my socks across the living room floor in front the TV to Smooth Criminal. 1 of the best times of my life is when I dressed as him for Halloween in pre-school. I remember the glitter glove, white socks, & shoes. Till this day, when I go the club & his music comes on I feel like a kid again. My eyes open wide as saucers then I begin to impersonate his dance moves. Regardless of what his personal issues may be I will always see him with a childlike innocence. People may not understand why I have taken the death of a complete stranger so hard but for me he was more than an entertainer. He was the 1st person I ever wanted to be like. Before I could put into words how much I love my family, I knew that I loved him & his music. So with his passing, its like part of my childhood has gone with him. When I listen to his music I just shake my head in disbelief at his genius. His music is like listening to Mozart or Chopin. I can close my eyes & just drift off because it is that magical to me. So on June 25th, I didn't just lose a great entertainer in whom I admire but I lost a close friend. RIP Michael Joseph Jackson, you were dearly loved by this man here.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Blind favors.....
Currently listening to: Trey Songz " First Date Sex "
So sometimes things happen to you & you really don't understand why. It may seem like at the time that it's just the shittiest thing in the world but in reality it was probably the best thing for you. Just cleared room for some much need changes in my life because I was walking around with the blinders on like a race horse. The race that I was racing wasn't the race for me. As a matter of fact, I don't know what God has in store for me so I'll just it at least wasn't the race for me at the time. Now that blinders are off it's like I've been missing out on some shit!! So I got my walking stick & I'm already been on my new journey. R.I.P. David Carridine because the last line reminded me of " Kung Fu: The Legend Continues " & he was the shit in the show!!
So sometimes things happen to you & you really don't understand why. It may seem like at the time that it's just the shittiest thing in the world but in reality it was probably the best thing for you. Just cleared room for some much need changes in my life because I was walking around with the blinders on like a race horse. The race that I was racing wasn't the race for me. As a matter of fact, I don't know what God has in store for me so I'll just it at least wasn't the race for me at the time. Now that blinders are off it's like I've been missing out on some shit!! So I got my walking stick & I'm already been on my new journey. R.I.P. David Carridine because the last line reminded me of " Kung Fu: The Legend Continues " & he was the shit in the show!!
Thursday, June 11, 2009
All praises due to......
Currently listening to: Trey Songz feat. Drake " Invented Sex "
My birthday was almost a week ago & I'd have to say that this birthday may have been the best I've had. Nothing too big but I had a blast either way. I thank God everyday for allowing me to breath another day on this Earth. Thinking back on how things were going for me last year, I also thank God for putting me through what I've been through in the past year. If anyone would have told me some of the things that happened to me would happen I probably would of laughed in their face. I've faced some situations & responded some ways that surprise me. This past year has definitely taught me that things aren't always what they seem. Sometimes you just need to remove yourself from a situation so you can have a birdseye view of what's going on. I just hope & pray that guy let's me see another year of life in the world.......
My birthday was almost a week ago & I'd have to say that this birthday may have been the best I've had. Nothing too big but I had a blast either way. I thank God everyday for allowing me to breath another day on this Earth. Thinking back on how things were going for me last year, I also thank God for putting me through what I've been through in the past year. If anyone would have told me some of the things that happened to me would happen I probably would of laughed in their face. I've faced some situations & responded some ways that surprise me. This past year has definitely taught me that things aren't always what they seem. Sometimes you just need to remove yourself from a situation so you can have a birdseye view of what's going on. I just hope & pray that guy let's me see another year of life in the world.......
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Its alright......
Currently listening to: "Every Girl" Lil Wayne feat. Young Money
Why is whenever you really start fuckin' with someone those of the opposite sex just flock to you?!? Not even fuckin' as in having sex though but spending time with someone significantly. I swear this weekend & pretty much every Memorial weekend is my time for getting females numbers! I wasn't even trying to get them which just makes it even worse. Where was all this fuckin' attention in like late February & early March when I was in another 1 of my funks?!? Bitches ain't shit..... lol. Luckily for the female I'm spending my time with that I'm a faithful kinda dude. Even though we ain't together I respect what we got going on so I'll just keep these bitches numbers on deck. I learned 1 thing in my lifetime so far, never put all of your faith in anyone but God & your mother! So no matter how close I ever get to a female she'll never have all of my trust. Gotta stay with something on deck cause bitches be buggin in these streets & you don't want to be in the cold wearing a wind breaker, you feel me?!?
Why is whenever you really start fuckin' with someone those of the opposite sex just flock to you?!? Not even fuckin' as in having sex though but spending time with someone significantly. I swear this weekend & pretty much every Memorial weekend is my time for getting females numbers! I wasn't even trying to get them which just makes it even worse. Where was all this fuckin' attention in like late February & early March when I was in another 1 of my funks?!? Bitches ain't shit..... lol. Luckily for the female I'm spending my time with that I'm a faithful kinda dude. Even though we ain't together I respect what we got going on so I'll just keep these bitches numbers on deck. I learned 1 thing in my lifetime so far, never put all of your faith in anyone but God & your mother! So no matter how close I ever get to a female she'll never have all of my trust. Gotta stay with something on deck cause bitches be buggin in these streets & you don't want to be in the cold wearing a wind breaker, you feel me?!?
Friday, May 15, 2009
This or That......
Currently listening to: Cam'ron " Where I Know You From "
Man, it's definitely been too long for me on this blog shit. Everytime I tell myself I'm gonna get back on my grind, something just comes up & I stop bloggin. I'm not gonna make myself any promises because I know how it's been turning out. So recently I been laying the penis down on someone new & before I layed it down she already called me a lot. Now post-penis, she calls me ALL THE FUCKIN TIME!!! Its not a problem though cause I actually like her & enjoy her company. I'm starting to notice a trend though in my life..... females usually like me enough once they get to know me. If I have sex with them, shit just goes to a whole different level! I'm always a person who's constructively dissatisfied so I always think I can lay the pipe better than I may have. Now I have to wonder, do I really be puttin' it down on these chicks or do I just run into some nymphos!?!? I need to tape myself so I can do a scouting report on my pipe game.
Man, it's definitely been too long for me on this blog shit. Everytime I tell myself I'm gonna get back on my grind, something just comes up & I stop bloggin. I'm not gonna make myself any promises because I know how it's been turning out. So recently I been laying the penis down on someone new & before I layed it down she already called me a lot. Now post-penis, she calls me ALL THE FUCKIN TIME!!! Its not a problem though cause I actually like her & enjoy her company. I'm starting to notice a trend though in my life..... females usually like me enough once they get to know me. If I have sex with them, shit just goes to a whole different level! I'm always a person who's constructively dissatisfied so I always think I can lay the pipe better than I may have. Now I have to wonder, do I really be puttin' it down on these chicks or do I just run into some nymphos!?!? I need to tape myself so I can do a scouting report on my pipe game.
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